I have to admit, the fact that it is already February, is scary. haha! I am literally graduating in exactly three months from tomorrow. AHH! I am about to be a big kid and I still do not have a job lined up yet or have any idea where I am living and that just scares the crap out of me. I have to admit though, living in California has really helped me gain a bit of perspective. Everyone here doesn't think as much as we do back home (obviously this doesn't apply to everyone). People here just do.
I come in contact with new people every single day. I feel like with every new person; I meet a business owner at the age of 20, 21, 22, someone who has traveled to a few different countries or has maybe even lived there, I have met someone who has big dreams and just doesn't second guess it. Or maybe they do but they still just DO it anyway. I like to worry about all the logistics. All the but "what if this happens.." or " what about money?, where am I going to live? what if it ends up not working out...etc?" Here that doesn't seem to chase them away from actually making what they want to happen...HAPPEN. I have two roommates that are moving to foreign countries after graduation. One to Europe and one to Australia then to Africa. Neither girls are scared. They want the adventure. One of them isn't going in with much plan. She is getting her visa, saving money this school year and summer, is going to find a job in Australia and live there for a year. She doesn't even care if she works in a coffee shop. It's the fact that she is living. She is experiencing. She is taking chances. She. is. doing.
I have a few friends who own businesses and when you get them talking about it, it is just pure excitement. They understand that they can fail. They get that it might not work out. The thing is, at least they tried. They had a vision, a dream, a mission whatever it might be, and did it. They didn't want to question "what if?" they wanted to see first. It's interesting to me because I have always seen myself that way yet, living here for a month, I realize I am not much of a "doer" as I may have thought. I let my fears and worries hold me back. But I did take one leap recently and that was coming to California, for my last semester of my senior year of college. I knew absolutely no one; it definitely scared me, terrified me really but I still did it. I have been reading a book called "Love Does" by Bob Goff. If you haven't read it before, I highly recommend it. He is a Christian lawyer who talks about how God's love does.
Who cares if you fail at things? You learned something along the way and AT LEAST you took that leap of faith. Just like God asks us to do with him. He just says, Lyndsie, I know giving everything up to me is scary, I get that, but I promise it will be worth your while. You might not know what is going to happen along the way. You won't have an itinerary to tell you what's next, what to prepare for but isn't that the exciting part? God wants us to enjoy life. Do what you love to do. Explore new hobbies, try them out, you fail. Oh well, you tried and now you know to try another one. Plus, I am sure you have some killer stories along the way. Being in California is teaching me to really think about what I want to do, and honestly sometimes the thought gives me anxiety haha! Because I don't know. There are sooooo many things I could see myself doing or wanting to tryout at some point in my life but feel like well man, I am not the best. I really enjoy it but so and so is better and I can't do it like them. It's like I talk myself out of it. It's crazy talk. God wants us to live a joyful life he states in Ecclesiastes 15.."so I commend the enjoyment of life....joy will accompany them in their toil all the days of their life God has given them under the sun". Life is way too short to not try. I had a friend I met here say to me, "Lyndsie, this is how it is going to go. You are going to go home, graduate, move back to San Diego, meet my friends, help start this boutique with them, rent the space and just go, then help lead worship here with me at church and just see how it goes." He acted like it was just so easy, the thing is, you knew he knew it wasn't but he would take the chance. He would just do. I wouldn't know until I try. Failing can be good for the soul. It helps you gain perspective.
These past four years of college have not been the easiest for me, I have learned so much about myself along the way, have made SOOO many incredible memories and met many incredible people. I can say I have been and am blessed to have what I have and have had. I was looking at old pictures from freshman year of college and MAN, time does sure fly. But, I have come a long way since then, so much has happened. I can't only imagine what is to come. All I do know is, that my future includes "doing and being". Being intentional with time, the Lord, my friends, family, others, work, etc. I am going to be....__________. Not sure yet but, God, I believe you have this under control, right? :) Still working on giving it all up. It's scary but I want to see what God has in store because I'm sure it's better than anything I could have ever imagined for myself. I know these past four years have. They have shaped me.
It's time for a throwback:
This was my first year at MVNU
First week of school with Em and Bec
Roommate love with WIFIFI haha
First night out with the girls to Polaris
The start of the piercing obsession for all of us. Em got her nosed pierced.
First lottery ticket with Rando. Won a dollar back haha!
Kels, Ali, Em and I
Halloween for the community. Dressed up as princesses to pass out to the kids at the dorm.
Halloween 2009
Dill and Kay came up to visit
New years at Morgan's
First new years in college
The endless basketball games we loved to go to
Girls night
Dress up like Cedarville, our rivals
More basketball games...
Celebrating Bec's 19th Birthday
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Karaoke Tuesday
Saw my first John Mayer concert :) :)
Celebrating Bri and Mike's birthday
First Block Party at the Vern
Karaoke night
hahhaa! Gotta love our random adventures with Nate, Travis and Ali
Last night out at OSU before the summer
Free tickets to the Paramore concerts thanks to the lovely Kayla and Caleb
Threw a surprise 21st birthday :)
Celebrate Mike's life
hahah one of the mannny pranks we pulled in Pioneer
O-H-I-O
The first time I met my new best friend Ang
Roomies
We scared off our Breakway girls
Tanning trip? haha yes we fit 8 people in a car
Hillbilly Bowling, freshman year
Alex's 21st birthday party
First picture after move in day
First week of school
Oh my...I have so many more photos. But that is enough for now. That was freshman year and now I am about to graduate again. I hope I don't look like Kim Kardashian when she cries, on graduation day. haha!
p.s. Sorry for the long novel :)
Blessed today.
xoxo, Lynds
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