So, I am feeling very encouraged today. Yesterday was a bit hard for me. I was strangely feeling super homesick and missing all my friends and family so much back home. I seem to have these moments where I just feel bad about myself or sulk for minute. I will wish I could just all my friends and family out here or I wish I was sitting in the living room with my friends in the good old 304. I will wish I could have lunch "Honest Hour" with Tyler, Chels, Jordan, Ben, Tony..whoever joined for that day. I will wish I was watching Pitch Perfect with my Senior ladies or watching Catfish with the roomies. I will wish I had a car to get around on my own or have my "favorite spot" to just digest my thoughts on paper, play music, pray, basically just detox. Then..it happens. I just feel like when I do have these moments, God shakes his head and is like "Lyndsie, do you see what I HAVE blessed you with?" I then realize, I am lucky to even have these wonderful relationships with people to miss and appreciate from a distance. I am lucky enough that my school and family could afford to let me come to Loma, I am lucky enough to have the opportunity to come here, I am lucky enough to learn more about myself by being alone, I am lucky enough to be by one of God's most beautiful creations: the ocean, I get to see the ocean from my room, I am lucky enough to meet new people and learn from them and create long lasting friendships here, make connections, learn more about my major in a complete different environment but more importantly... I am blessed with the opportunity to be uncomfortable.
Yes, uncomfortable. I was reading a dear friends blog post today and it just really hit me in the face. She was naming her new year resolutions and the last one just slapped me.
This is what she said: " I want to get uncomfortable more."
Like okay God, I hear you.
MAN. I mean, Life is way to short to not stretch your mind and your worldview. Being uncomfortable means going somewhere, doing something, saying something you would normally not. Isn't that what God calls his followers to be: more uncomfortable.
I am just so stuck in being comfortable in the last 2 years. That is so not me and her post really just helped me realize once again, God doesn't want me to be comfortable. Comfortable for me is being around people I do know, watching pitch perfect, walking into Thomas, Yerxa and Madtes classes, it is going to my favorite spots, having a car, knowing or coming in contact with people I know every day. But the thing is God gave me this opportunity, he said Lynds, go somewhere where you know no one. Explore what is outside of what you know. I am sooo beyond blessed to be able to have this chance. I am so happy that I took that leap of faith and I am so happy to be here at Loma. It is beautiful and I have already met so many great people. I can not WAIT to see how God stretches me. I have honestly felt like God was at a distance lately. I am just blessed by wonderful friends and this life. I am thankful today. I am thankful for the day's to come.
Thank you Chels. You helped me get put in my place yet again. Love you girl and thank you Lord for putting her in my life to shake my head up and open my eyes a bit wider.
Hope you are all enjoying the sunshine, snow, rain, whatever it may be. Hope you are enjoying every minute of it :)
Luke 7:23
.."Blessed is the one who who does not lose faith in me."
This is a picture from last night's STUNNING sunset I was talking to my friend Abbie from back home and my roommate Kristin runs in and is like "Lyndsie..Lyndsie..open your blinds now. Do you see the sunset? Welcome to San Diego."
xoxo,
Lynds
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