Just be.

Gah, it's January and I am laying on a pink towel in a oversized Oakley tank, Pacsun shorts in 80 degree weather..in SOCAL. Is this real life?

I forget that it's winter about every day, until I have to write the date on something...then it hits me like..woo! :)
I talk to all my friends back home and they are all bundled up in layers in 8 degree weather. This is probably a good time for me to thank God again for this cool, cool opportunity. Or shall I say (warm, warm) opportunity. ;)

I have to admit, it has been a weird transformation for me. Weirder than I thought it would be. I am normally the girl who can go anywhere without talking to my parents/family for weeks. Not because I don't love them or miss them, but I just enjoy my independance and get lost in the "new" but this experience is a bit different. I want to talk to my family and friends back home as much as I can. I guess this is me just getting older, realizing what is important. Don't get me wrong, I am enjoying every moment here in Cali. I love all the new friends I make and am sure I will continue to. It is like I am in a funk but at the same time, I'm not at all. haha! You are probably thinking, Lyndsie..what does that even mean? I know, believe me, it's weird but I mean...I am about to be going through SO many life changes. I graduate in 3 1/2 months! AHH! Holy smokes. Who knows where I will be working, living, involved in, anything. Everything could change drastically in 4 months. I am so stinking pumped but terrified all at the same time. My roommates and I were talking today about where we thought we were going to be when we graduated and were looking at jobs. Two of them want to move to Europe and work there for about 6 months and asked me if I wanted to and then my other friend totally is up for me living with her in Nashville, I could always work in Cincinnati or Columbus or even here, in Cali. It is all just so crazy, it so crazy to think about the endless possiblities.
I do not feel prepared at all. But is that okay? Is this an opportunity for me to trust the Lord with all I have; that whatever lies ahead of me, will be perfect in that moment? It will be just what I need at that specific time. When I really take a moment to think it about it all, I mean this time last year I was applying to attend PLNU in Fall of 2012 not knowing if I would even be able to come out here..and look..I am here. Maybe I am just being reminded today that every day is a blessing. No matter what happens. The fact that we are able to wake up in the morning, able to breathe after a quick run and are able to sleep in a bed at night is the best blessing in itself. Why is that so easy to look over? Why is that not enough for some of us or all of us?
Sometimes I just forget about living in the moment because I am so worried about making that "moment" happen or too anxious about the future. It is so hard for me lately to "just be or just live" as my mom would say. I get so wrapped up in all the whoop la of my day, or the next day, next week, next month, next year...that I don't even focus on today. I am always worried about figuring things out on my own.
The truth is I may not have tomorrow. We never know. All I know is, is that I want to be more thankful for every day that I have and to just BE. God wants us to enjoy life, not take it too seriously.

I read two verses today that really just hit home with everything I was thinking about.
Psalm 52:8
"...I trusted in generous mercy of God then and now."

Proverbs 3:5-8
" Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure everything out on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do; everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume you know it all. Run to God. Your body will glow with health, your very bones will vibrate with life."

Hope you can take a moment to "just live" and be thankful for all you have and who God has made you and will continually mold you to be. Praying for anyone who reads this post. I love you and you are awesome. Hope you have had a FABULOUS tuesday :)

xoxo,
Lynds